tick & tock

i've been trying to decide how to explain this phenomenon of temporal brain fire, and i have nothing.  well, no, i have a theory on how this happened.  a) the whole seasonal backwardness has me confused.  b) not having a schedule doesn't help.  a week can go by and i don't know where it went, simply because i have nothing i necessarily have to do.  (even when i was working it was true, i have to know what day it is, but not the date.  it's not like i have to remember that such and such a date is this commitment or whatever, because i don't have anything except "flight home" which was so far in the future.  some days i don't know what month it is, let alone day.  no wonder time is passing me by.)  the downhill theory from a few months ago is so definitely true.

and now i hear that clock ticking down!

the weather is pretty awful here, on thursday i went to doubtful sound on a boat cruise, but it started to snow.  wilmot pass sure was pretty underneath it all, but it was terrible for trying to sightsee in the sound.  i saw...snow.  and some trees on a hill.  covered in snow.  a disappointment.  i'm not even going to try to go kayaking in milford, what's the point?  i'd freeze to death.  and probably my fingers would fall off, because of this.  recently i've noticed an awful pain in my fingers when they get cold, even mildly, and then i remembered reading about this syndrome in my winter hiking and camping book.  obviously self-diagnosis means little, but i have no other explanations for the cause.  (although it could be panic attacks, that's what webmd's symptom checker tells me.  it gives me that diagnosis as an option no matter what symptoms i put in, i could put in my leg hurts and it would tell me i'm either having panic attacks or have generalized anxiety disorder.  i don't put much stock into symptom checker!)

so bad weather = a lot of time watching olympics.  this afternoon was men's 20km speed walking.  oh, the excitement!  also viewed: badminton and ping pong.  but also some genuinely exciting stuff, michael phelps!  and shawn johnson, fellow iowan, getting silver in gymnastics!  that was pretty great.  tonight should be good, lots of rowing finals in which new zealand has finalists in five groupings.  and tomorrow?  i'm hoping for better weather!